2006, july 24 The memory ruins

Don't come near me I don't like u. Don't speak to me your voice curses me. Don't look at me I feel frightened. The herd of people rushing into me and away from me seriously harms me. Hating the figure of humanity in my own heart. Being a lonely wild beast without any mind just do whatever like. I cannot bear this state of mind and even cannot walk away in the lonely through the longest path in life.

A gentle breeze

A gentle breeze towards my grin face awarded me a life. I could hardly believe that I'm safe to be in the worlds of joys and beauty. Some time back I was in a very serious situation about what could I do and what must I do? Being in a deep cave I used to think about my failures and my black lucks whole time.

Why can't I be joyful and energizing?
Why am I so sad,unsatisfied and furious?
Why am I being so red hot ?

These were some of the queries I wanted to get solution of underneath the Peepal tree. Meantime, the rain wiped all the anger and cooled me which made the happiest and the best Sanjeet than I was ever.



AUGUST 17, 2006

from the pages of my life december 27, 2006

I'm sure that I am in a serious trouble now from this day onwards. What sort of program am I planning now? I cannot say surely. How am I interested in such silly acts? I am surprised to see myself. I am now turning down into a sweet teen which at this stage may lead to destruction. Still, my mind is at an age of a child which is very much careless and free. I'm in a dilemma what to do? If given chance,I may pretendto be a fooland if not I'll be more than idiot. Taking guardto my past references, I am entertaining myself at any cost.