From my diary , 29 July 2006

Too much furious may cause severe harm to me and myself only. I can only be a silly and a spoiled ass. Cannot control my temper nowadays. Wish I were as farther as I could be. I cannot stop being stubborn. Always be cool and fit & fine forever in my life I can only think about that. I cannot insist to be a good gun forever but its only a daylight dream. I've numerous holes in me which cannot heal with time. I cannot pray for any of the heaven located great human so its alright to be with one's wound hurting and causing severe pain. I have no ways besides roaring in inferiority.